I Am Not A Poet :)

I miss the way you smile
I miss the way you breathe
I miss the way your body moved when standing next to me

I miss the way you laugh 
I miss the way you dance
I miss the way you led me along, giving me a chance 

I miss the way you explain 
I miss the way you teach
I miss the days we'd spent together lying on the beach

I miss the way you hug
I miss the way you walk
I miss the times we had to be alone and talk

I miss all those times we were together
You and I, two birds of a feather

A Revelation of Some Sort :)

Today I realized why things had not been going so great out here in the forested land of Pennsylvania. Well why they weren't going so well up until very recently. This realization was I had become, in almost every way, addicted to my friends. Is that a weird thing? It's not exactly that I was addicted to them(even though I love them all to death), but more addicted to always having someone right there with me to do something fun with. Or even just to hang out with and talk to. But out here it's all very different. It isn't necessarily a bad different, it just isn't the kind of place for me :) Now I just need some ideas of things to keep myself busy until I return to Utah. Hmmmm......?

Unsettling News

Today was a very unusual day for me, and it didn't start out that way. No, it mostly happened when I was told this very thing that happens to scare me nearly to death. And it's not because I don't think I can do it..... Well that's a lie. I have nearly no way to be able to pull it off. Like nearly zero. You wanna know what it is? I was told that when I returned to Utah I would need to take care of myself. Which means growing up. Which means getting a job. Which means paying for my car and insurance and possibly even somewhere new to stay (if I can't handle my other place). These aren't all assumptions either because these were thugs I was told. And all this is mind blowing. Oh, and exceptionally frustrating. Along with this new thing who knows if I'll be able to keep all my elective classes. I'm very unsettled about all this right about now. The funny thing though is that I almost nearly saw this all coming. Now I just need to figure out what to do. Hhhhmmmmm.......?