My friends

My friends are the greatest people I know. The thing is though, they are all my family to me. Like saying goodbye to them is like saying goodbye to my super close family members. And that is very disheartening. After realizing all the points above I finally figured out the reason for my rather lacking mood. I haven't had my full family around since this play has started so maybe I've subconsciously been feeling quite alone and unloved. I don't know, all I know is that tonight was probably the the greatest run I've had, and what do ya know, my whole family was there. They pretty much keep me alive and going. I don't know what I'd do without them. I love them all so much (;

I can't make any decisions right now blog. I know I like that one someone, but then there is also that other person who I've liked for SOOO long and thats going/gone nowhere....... In both cases said person wont reciprocate the feelings. And I know there are girls out there that like me but I just don't feel like I wanna go there with them. Is that rude of me blog? To deny that relationship from someone because I can't move past my feelings for these two other people?
Sigh, blog, it seems that in the case of love I will always be a hopeless man wanting for what he can't get to.