I can't make any decisions right now blog. I know I like that one someone, but then there is also that other person who I've liked for SOOO long and thats going/gone nowhere....... In both cases said person wont reciprocate the feelings. And I know there are girls out there that like me but I just don't feel like I wanna go there with them. Is that rude of me blog? To deny that relationship from someone because I can't move past my feelings for these two other people?
Sigh, blog, it seems that in the case of love I will always be a hopeless man wanting for what he can't get to.

"The part that hurts the most is I feel I'm not interesting enough to keep the persons attention......."

The High School Life

Guys, sometimes I can be such a jerk person. And at the moment I am a jerk I don't even think about what I am doing. But then about a day and a half later I begin to catch on. Blegh sometimes I suck. I feel like some people are rubbing off on me that shouldn't be..... /:

And guys, I have senioritis. Already. I hate it. This year is going soooo slow!! I'm ready to be graduated and actually start moving somewhere in my life. Cause right now, I'm stuck in the same place.

Plus I'm gonna be honest here. I don't care to live where I do anymore. I'm tired of being yelled at for the stupidest things in the world and I'm just ready to move forward with my life.

On a lighter note, I did finally get a job. I'm gonna tell you where it is but don't laugh. Actually go ahead cause everybody does. Its the McDonalds across the street from Lehi High School.

Um I still like who I've liked. I don't know if that'll ever change. I need to have my for real first kiss already.

*Sigh* I need to move out

Word Vomit

The previous post has been removed. To sum it up there was Anger and sadness. Oh but this line can be reposted "I'm so tired of being one upped in every part of my life." Basically I'm tired of having mediocre talents and being invisible. That is all.

I Am Not A Poet :)

I miss the way you smile
I miss the way you breathe
I miss the way your body moved when standing next to me

I miss the way you laugh 
I miss the way you dance
I miss the way you led me along, giving me a chance 

I miss the way you explain 
I miss the way you teach
I miss the days we'd spent together lying on the beach

I miss the way you hug
I miss the way you walk
I miss the times we had to be alone and talk

I miss all those times we were together
You and I, two birds of a feather

A Revelation of Some Sort :)

Today I realized why things had not been going so great out here in the forested land of Pennsylvania. Well why they weren't going so well up until very recently. This realization was I had become, in almost every way, addicted to my friends. Is that a weird thing? It's not exactly that I was addicted to them(even though I love them all to death), but more addicted to always having someone right there with me to do something fun with. Or even just to hang out with and talk to. But out here it's all very different. It isn't necessarily a bad different, it just isn't the kind of place for me :) Now I just need some ideas of things to keep myself busy until I return to Utah. Hmmmm......?

Unsettling News

Today was a very unusual day for me, and it didn't start out that way. No, it mostly happened when I was told this very thing that happens to scare me nearly to death. And it's not because I don't think I can do it..... Well that's a lie. I have nearly no way to be able to pull it off. Like nearly zero. You wanna know what it is? I was told that when I returned to Utah I would need to take care of myself. Which means growing up. Which means getting a job. Which means paying for my car and insurance and possibly even somewhere new to stay (if I can't handle my other place). These aren't all assumptions either because these were thugs I was told. And all this is mind blowing. Oh, and exceptionally frustrating. Along with this new thing who knows if I'll be able to keep all my elective classes. I'm very unsettled about all this right about now. The funny thing though is that I almost nearly saw this all coming. Now I just need to figure out what to do. Hhhhmmmmm.......?