I Am Not A Poet :)

I miss the way you smile
I miss the way you breathe
I miss the way your body moved when standing next to me

I miss the way you laugh 
I miss the way you dance
I miss the way you led me along, giving me a chance 

I miss the way you explain 
I miss the way you teach
I miss the days we'd spent together lying on the beach

I miss the way you hug
I miss the way you walk
I miss the times we had to be alone and talk

I miss all those times we were together
You and I, two birds of a feather

A Revelation of Some Sort :)

Today I realized why things had not been going so great out here in the forested land of Pennsylvania. Well why they weren't going so well up until very recently. This realization was I had become, in almost every way, addicted to my friends. Is that a weird thing? It's not exactly that I was addicted to them(even though I love them all to death), but more addicted to always having someone right there with me to do something fun with. Or even just to hang out with and talk to. But out here it's all very different. It isn't necessarily a bad different, it just isn't the kind of place for me :) Now I just need some ideas of things to keep myself busy until I return to Utah. Hmmmm......?

Unsettling News

Today was a very unusual day for me, and it didn't start out that way. No, it mostly happened when I was told this very thing that happens to scare me nearly to death. And it's not because I don't think I can do it..... Well that's a lie. I have nearly no way to be able to pull it off. Like nearly zero. You wanna know what it is? I was told that when I returned to Utah I would need to take care of myself. Which means growing up. Which means getting a job. Which means paying for my car and insurance and possibly even somewhere new to stay (if I can't handle my other place). These aren't all assumptions either because these were thugs I was told. And all this is mind blowing. Oh, and exceptionally frustrating. Along with this new thing who knows if I'll be able to keep all my elective classes. I'm very unsettled about all this right about now. The funny thing though is that I almost nearly saw this all coming. Now I just need to figure out what to do. Hhhhmmmmm.......?

A passage. From a story. Inside my head.

"Dear You,
I miss you. I miss you a whole lot actually. Do you miss me?..... That's ok you don't have to answer. I sure hope you do though. It would make being here more bearable. To know the thought of me is taking space in your head would surely brighten my day. Anyways.... I hope to hear from you soon. I miss you.....
Love Always,
Me"

Just a thought....

I wrote you a long letter and you never replied, and I knew when I had left it'd be our very last goodbye. I love you so much but I don't know what to say. Sadly I go through the heartache each day. And now I know, that with you, I wish I'd stayed. We'd been closer than ever that very night before I left, and now I know your touch is what I'll never forget.

Where Am I?

Haha the title basically explains how I feel right now. Tomorrow morning I'll probably wake up having no idea where I am haha. But here's how today went down.
My mom woke me up this morning from an amazing dream (that I'm not going to explain) to remind me of my flight. I got up and put all my stuff together whilst feeling rather sad because I was leaving the Griffeths house. Haha I love Kyle and his family so much. But anyways I said my goodbyes and off I went to the airport. I then thanked Kyle's father for everything and left to get myself onto the plane. It's a frightening yet mildly interesting thingto take care of yourself at an airport for the first time. Makes ya feel real old and whatnot. Anyways I got all that taken care of and made my way onto my plane. Then came the long plane ride where I slept and listened to plenty of music. Oh and of course had one of those delicious bags of peanuts. Can't fly on a plane without one eating one of them. But the plane ride went by fast and soon I find out that I'm all the way across the country. My family quickly found me and we all left. The car ride home was long and interesting. When I got home there was an AMAZING sunset and the twilight after words was beautiful. Then to top it all off, tons and tons of lightening bugs came out of nowhere. I had totally forgotten about them. It was a night full of beauty in nature. But despite all this amazing stuff I still feel a bit of homesickness. Summer will pass quickly though and I'll soon be back with my friends :D
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Sometimes I really wish I could live with my own parents.